Saturday, August 05, 2006
i just hope...
i just hope you guys can be more understanding... i noe i've made you all angry cos i kept on hanging out wif frens n coming home late at nite... but... haf you all think? none of you can help me wif the academic stuffs, etc.. i haf to seek help from others n settle them ALL by myself...i'm really tired... tired with all these accusations...
please.. please dun criticise my frens.. please.. you all wun noe how much it hurts...hurt because you all dun trust me.. dun trust dat i haf my own judgement...
hey, i tink i really need to say this out .. keeping to myself for years dun make me feel well at all.. i dun wanna hurt anyone's feelings but i just cant keep all to myself anymore.. sorry...i noe you guys care for me alot.. but haf you guys ever tot? i will feel tired by trying to be an obedient gal sometimes.. i haf been trying hard.. trying hard to keep up to the std you guys haf of me.. i aso wanna be a perfect gal of yours.. i aso wanna please you all.. no matter academic wise or wadever.. i've been trying hard to study well.. so at least you all might feel proud of me.. but.. you guys just say it's not good enuff...i really need some encouragement at times.. but why you guys dun give at all?.. i've been trying hard to stay cheerful in front of you guys... because i dun wanna you all to worry... i wanna be the one who cheers you all up..but after all these, did u all ever spare a tot for me? haf you all wonder if i'm really happy? i'm really struggling very hard sometimes you know?... a struggle to ovecome the pain i haf in my heart to show a smile on me... but.. you all just could not be bothered... why?
i'm really disappointed this time.. really.. i'm only n already nineteen please.. is it still wrong for a nineteen yr old gal to haf fun? is it wrong for a nineteen yr old gal to choose her own frens? sorry.. but i'm really tired.. tired of this... i dun ask for freedom.. but trust...
please.. give me more trust can? i wun go astray of course.. cos i still wanna be a gd gal of yours.. cos i still love you all alot.. please daddy, please mummy...
i just hope you guys can be more understanding... i noe i've made you all angry cos i kept on hanging out wif frens n coming home late at nite... but... haf you all think? none of you can help me wif the academic stuffs, etc.. i haf to seek help from others n settle them ALL by myself...i'm really tired... tired with all these accusations...
please.. please dun criticise my frens.. please.. you all wun noe how much it hurts...hurt because you all dun trust me.. dun trust dat i haf my own judgement...
hey, i tink i really need to say this out .. keeping to myself for years dun make me feel well at all.. i dun wanna hurt anyone's feelings but i just cant keep all to myself anymore.. sorry...i noe you guys care for me alot.. but haf you guys ever tot? i will feel tired by trying to be an obedient gal sometimes.. i haf been trying hard.. trying hard to keep up to the std you guys haf of me.. i aso wanna be a perfect gal of yours.. i aso wanna please you all.. no matter academic wise or wadever.. i've been trying hard to study well.. so at least you all might feel proud of me.. but.. you guys just say it's not good enuff...i really need some encouragement at times.. but why you guys dun give at all?.. i've been trying hard to stay cheerful in front of you guys... because i dun wanna you all to worry... i wanna be the one who cheers you all up..but after all these, did u all ever spare a tot for me? haf you all wonder if i'm really happy? i'm really struggling very hard sometimes you know?... a struggle to ovecome the pain i haf in my heart to show a smile on me... but.. you all just could not be bothered... why?
i'm really disappointed this time.. really.. i'm only n already nineteen please.. is it still wrong for a nineteen yr old gal to haf fun? is it wrong for a nineteen yr old gal to choose her own frens? sorry.. but i'm really tired.. tired of this... i dun ask for freedom.. but trust...
please.. give me more trust can? i wun go astray of course.. cos i still wanna be a gd gal of yours.. cos i still love you all alot.. please daddy, please mummy...
what we could have been, 2:25 PM.
